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Friday, November 27, 2020

#TharnTypeTheSeriesS2Ep4: Fade To Black and the Powerful Chemistry of #MewGulf


Twitter Uproar: When the production team milks the actors dry and throws an iconic series under the bus. Just change the title already!
Reality: Not bad. The plot has moved along and the characterizations are now set. Still some improvement needed, but this was not disappointing at all. On the contrary, this episode kind of rocked.

Gulf Kanawut (white shirt) as Type
Gulf Kanawut (white shirt) as Type and Tee Mild (black shirt) as Techno during the S2EP1 Countdown

Sunday, November 22, 2020

Tristan and Zach: Chicken In The Oven, Love On the Side (A Taboo Story) #FreeRead #mm #erotic #romance #TabooSeries #oneshot

*Disclaimer: raw and unedited

Thanksgiving was just around the corner and after months—no, years—of enduring the constant feeling of dread, Tristan felt like he could finally breathe freely. He and Zach had been afraid to voice their concerns over the results of the most recent presidential elections, yet it wasn’t a political situation they could easily ignore. Their marriage, their very lives, had been at stake. They’d lost friends and a lot of clients because of it. The pandemic situation did not help matters, especially after it had affected the firm’s base operations. Deciding to work from home had been a simple decision, implementing it and being successful at it, was not. With the elections finally over, the pandemic was one of the principal things Tristan continued to feel insecure about. Thankfully, they were spending two weeks at the beach house beginning the next day. Although it was not a real escape, it offered temporary appeasement to the constant battles they continued to face. Although nothing was ever easy, and he knew things were not going to get easier overnight, he wasn’t worried. In the end, the word of law would overcome, and his marriage to Zach would stay safe, at least, for the time being.

    The week before, Tristan had decided to check both his and Zach’s schedule and surprise his husband with a two-week vacation. Tonight marked the first night of their two weeks’ vacation. After Thanksgiving, the busy work schedule would have to be faced again, but for now, all Tristan thought about was how he and Zach had finally the time off to focus on one another.

Living together for the past several years had not been free of arguments. The truth of the matter was, Zach proved quite opinionated. There were times he straight on butted heads with Tristan’s more conservative outlook, but somehow, they’d continued to grow as a couple. In fact, he felt they’d grown closer to one another. There were even moments when all Tristan had to do was look at Zach and immediately know what he was thinking. The ping of an incoming notification shook him out of his thoughts. He glanced down at his phone and saw the message from Zach saying he was stopping by the grocery to pick up some things.

“Do you want me to get you anything?”

“Nothing. Hurry home, I miss you already,” Tristan smiled as typed into his phone.

“Aw, so cheesy. I love it,” came Zach’s quick response.

Tristan's smile broadened at Zach’s use of the word cheesy. Yes, Zach called him out on being just that. Maybe he was cheesy, but he was one for a reason. Never had he experienced the kind of feelings he did until Zach came into his life. Even though Zach was much younger, he was an old soul and their connection dug deep. Should it have been any other man, he doubted he would have been brave enough to express his love so openly. He would have felt insecure. Ever since he and Zach started their relationship, he had nothing but strength and confidence in their love. Not for the first time, he thanked the higher powers that he had Zach in his life.

The grocer Zach was at was only fifteen minutes out. Tristan had enough time to prepare the screening room and set up the movie Zach had wanted to watch for a long time. It was an old one, The Abyss. He could still remember watching it the first time and after Zach had expressed interest, so he thought it was a good idea to purchase an account with an online streaming app. Watching movies was a pastime that Tristan had only rediscovered, thanks to Zach and the pandemic.

Whenever Zach wanted to, as he termed it, chill out, he watched movies. It didn’t matter what genre as long as he could get lost in the special effects and forget about real life. Both of them had been through a lot the past several months, first with Tristan’s parents’ refusal to face reality their son was gay and was married to a man, and second, their illogical conviction Tristan was going back to Amanda. Choosing to accept their ex-daughter-in-law was in prison was something that even his parents’ closest friends couldn’t understand. Zach didn’t help much. He’s shrugged and placed the blame on senility. Maybe he should adopt Zach’s simplistic approach and get some untroubled sleep for once.

Tristan was just loading popcorn into the air fryer when he heard a door slam followed soon after by Zach’s regular greeting.

“Honey, I’m home.”

“In the kitchen,” Tristan called out. After adjusting the foil and making sure that everything was set upright, Tristan closed the lid.

Just then, the timer rang and he hurried over to check on the chicken. He decided it was as good as done when he pulled on a wing and the meat gave easily. He was putting on oven mittens when Zach poked his head around the kitchen door.

“Something smells great. What’s for dinner?”

“Nothing fancy. Just baked chicken and potatoes,” Tristan said. “Leave the bags by the door, I’ll get to them as soon as I’m done with this.”

“All right, thanks. I’ll take a shower. Are you sure you don’t need any help?”

“I’ve got everything under control,” Tristan said, throwing a quick smile at Zach.

“Okay, I’ll be in about ten minutes.”

“I already placed a change of clothes at the back of the door.”

“Thank you, baby.”

Tristan pulled out the dish from the oven and carefully placed it on the island. He sniffed at the delicious odors coming off it and smiled to himself. Chicken was such a mundane dish to cook, but when prepared properly and with the right ingredients, it was spectacular. Zach was fond of chicken, too fond of it. If asked what he wanted to eat, he would always mention chicken. Even when it was still safe to eat in restaurants, he’d order chicken. Not to mention, he’d order in chicken take out. It didn’t matter how it was prepared, just as long as it was done well, Zach enjoyed the meat. It was just one thing Tristan had learned about Zach through the years that had surprised him at first. Tristan reached for a spray bottle before opening the kitchen door to the garage. He looked down at the grocery bags Zach had left on the floor for a moment before spraying alcohol over it. Watching the mist settle, Tristan thought back about how life had turned abnormal ever since the pandemic started. He knew people laughed at him for his overzealousness in making sure he didn’t have the chance of getting the virus, but he didn’t care for their ignorant beliefs. At least his family stayed safe because of it. The bathroom door opened to his left and he looked up.

Zach, his hair slick from his shower, stepped out of the bathroom, a ready smile on his lips. Tristan blinked, his brain suddenly muddled at the sight of his husband. He didn’t know how long he stood there in silence, gawking until Zach took the spray bottle from his hand.

“Hey, are you all right?”

Tristan blinked slowly, feeling his face flush from embarrassment. He knew that Zach could see right through him. How many times had he been caught staring at him in wonderment? His children often teased him about it. He and Zach had been married for over a year and he still couldn’t get over how lucky he was.

At thirty-one, Zach was at his peak of attractiveness, from the way his once lanky body had become buffer from working out with Tristan, to the way his face had matured. Zach had always been beautiful in Tristan’s eyes, but now, he was just unbearably handsome. Tristan blinked once more when Zach’s hand cupped the back of his neck and pulled him closer.

“Hello,” Zach said. It was a simple word, nothing sexy or seductive in it at all, and yet it made the blood rush straight down to Tristan’s groin and he found it hard to speak. Their gazes met and held before Zach lowered his head and brushed his lips over Tristan’s.

The touch was tender and sweet. It made Tristan hunger for anything but chicken.

The kiss deepened, and the heat rose between them like a fever. Zach slid away from his lips across his cheek then down to his neck. At the juncture where neck met shoulder, Zach planted a tender kiss followed by a little nip. Tristan breathed in a harsh breath, his mind in turmoil. The only thing he could do was turn his head and capture Zach’s mouth in his once more. Tongues dueled in a dance of dominance. It was always like this between them, never wavered since that first day they shed all inhibition and braved the potential storm should their respective families discover them. Tristan pushed his tongue deep into Zach’s mouth. It was captured in an instant, sucked on, and held there by his determined lover. Tristan sighed at the way Zach sucked and press himself closer. He tightened his arms around Tristan’s waist, stealing the breath away.

Tristan lost track of time. All that mattered was Zach. It wasn’t until Zach raised his head that Tristan found himself pressed against the kitchen door, breathing harshly in time with Zach. Their gazes met, but they didn’t speak until a smile morphed over Zach’s lips.

“Hi,” he whispered.

Tristan swallowed and his gaze fell on Zach’s plump and reddened lips. “Hi,” he croaked out.

“Miss me?”

Tristan nodded and swallowed again. His mind was still lost in the memory of their earlier kiss and all he could feel was the hard cock pressed against his.

“Dinner can wait?”

Tristan nodded again.

Zach’s brow rose, his gaze searching and all-knowing. The smile broadened. “I see. Shall we take this inside?”

All Tristan could do was nod again. Where had his voice gone? He didn’t care. Zach was here and he wanted him.

Tristan couldn’t recall how they got here, after all, it was on the second floor, and yet there he was, lying on the bed looking up at Zach. His husband towered over him, but he wasn’t meeting Tristan’s gaze. He was looking down, his lids hiding his eyes, but Tristan knew what he was looking at. The balls of his eyes moved under the shuttered lids, moving to and fro. As he continued to observe him, Tristan felt Zach’s body heat up against his. Where their skin touched, he could feel Zach’s body heat up. Tristan looked up and smiled as a flush began to cover Zach’s chest. He’d always found it fascinating how easy it was to assess Zach’s emotions by the way his blood moved under his skin. Tristan’s lips curled up as the flush moved up to Zach’s neck and up to the tips of his ears, all the while Zach’s breathing began to accelerate. Growing harsher as the seconds ticked by.

Tristan shifted slightly, adjusting himself so Zach sat squarely over his groin. His hardening shaft quickly rose to attention, as did Zach’s. It was a fascinating sight, one he had never tired of.

Zach looked up and Tristan drew in a deep breath.

How had he gotten so lucky to have a man like Zach in his life? He definitely didn’t think he deserved it and yet there he was, sitting on top of him, looking down at him. Zach’s eyes shimmered in the darkness, but Tristan didn’t find it difficult to read them. How could he miss the love in those depths?

The intensity in those brown eyes whenever their owner was sexually aroused.

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

Tristan swallowed. Whenever Zach’s voice changed into that low, raspy voice of his that only came out when they were both in bed naked always made his mind blank out. In the past, when their relationship had been new, he had managed to control his thoughts and emotions. Now that they’d been together for several years, he was not doing so well. But it was all good. He was just more in love with his Zach than he’d ever been. From the way Zach was with him, he was just as in love with him. Zach had proven his feelings after the incident with the intern. Tristan took in a harsh breath. He shook his head and focused on what was Zach was doing to him. Now was not the time to think about that incident.

“What are you thinking about?” Zach continued to slather the lube over Tristan’s cock.

Tristan opened his mouth to answer, but Zach lifted his hips. Tristan reached out and grabbed on to Zach’s hips. He knew what was going to happen next, but Zach always managed to surprise him. He would never just settle over so he could take Tristan deep inside him. He always thought of something that would take Tristan’s sanity away. He was not in the mood for that tonight.

“Don’t you dare,” Tristan threatened lightly. Ah, there he was. He'd found himself again.

Zach froze, his eyes widening slightly, but the quirk of a smile ruined revealed how much he was enjoying the exchange. “What do you mean? What’d I do?”

“You’re thinking about teasing me again that’s what you’re doing.”

“I’m not.” Zach let out a soft whine as he lifted his hips higher. He adjusted Tristan’s length under him.

Tristan grimaced. His balls felt full to bursting. The tip of his cock head felt sore, as though the skin were stretched overly thin. Overall, he just wanted to feel the surrounding flesh, gaining in heat as he thrust into Zach. Memories of how their flesh rubbed against the other in tight friction made the hunger for his Zach rise a hundredfold.


“Lower yourself on me.”

“Please, Tris,” Zach whispered.

“Slowly now, baby,” Tristan whispered back.

A small whimper escaped Zach’s lips, but he did as instructed. Slowly, ever so gently, he lowered himself over the tip of Tristan’s cock.

Tristan let out a small growl as he pulled Zach down on him, controlling his movements with his sure hands.

Breath exploded from Zach’s mouth as Tristan felt his cock gain entrance. Heat covered the tip of Tristan’s cock before spreading down over his cockhead. The entry may have gotten easier through the years, but once inside, Tristan still had a hard time containing his reactions. The combined heat and tight embrace was something he had always truly relished in. Something on Zach provided him.

He opened his eyes when he felt a slight twitch from Zach and he smiled up at him when he saw the almost beatific smile light up Zach’s face. His eyes were closed, his lips were parted slightly, the flush had grown deeper as he lowered himself further down until Tristan was fully engulfed.

“Touch down,” Zach said in a breathless voice before letting out a

Tristan’s eyes flung open, saw the silly grin on Zach’s face and gave hip a gentle slap.

“Ooh, naughty,” Zach cooed.

Tristan reached up with both hands took hold of Zach’s neck and pulled him down until their faces were mere inches apart.

“Why are you being so naughty?” Tristan asked.

Zach’s mouth twisted before the tip of his tongue slipped between his lips. He licked on his lower lip before lowering himself even more until his forehead pressed against Tristan’s.

“Because you like it.”

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Saturday, November 21, 2020

#TharnType The Series S2: Seven Years of Love: Deleteable Scenes Take Over The Show

There is something about the Thai BL (Boy Love or MM) series, TharnType The Series (or TTTS), that grabbed my attention from the first second of the first season episode. Blame it on its stars, current heartthrobs Gulf Kanawut and Mew Suppasit  a.k.a. MewGulf. TharnType is the first series for Gulf while it’s the second for Mew. Their chemistry comes across the screen that is almost too hot to handle at times. 

A little background: TTTS was a labour of love of the author who was laughed out of popular production studios for daring to dream of making a show out of her ‘porn with plot’ novel. Unfazed, she proceeded to pledge her assets, raise a tiny budget and outsource the entire production to a rookie team which, luckily, turned out to be massively talented. The auditions also, in an instance of incredible serendipity, coughed up two platinum-grade leads and in general, a stellar cast.

Even then, there were times the executive producer and author of the book, Mame (a pseudonym, since it is common for women erotica writers in Thailand to conceal their real identities), feared the series would never be finished. Production ran into severe financial and logistical issues. Thankfully, they did finish it and was able to get the Thai version of the show released Oct 7, 2019 through One 31, with a repeat with English subtitles through Line TV. S1’s opening scene got me hooked, all because of the scowling handsome face of Type (played by Gulf), a handsome homophobe with a dark past who, you guessed it, is going to fall in love with a proud and out gay man, Tharn (played by Mew).

It does not help that both actors are acting like a real couple when they're out and about promoting their solo, combined shows/endorsements, or just relaxing. Their relationship status has never been officially confirmed, but their fandom swears by MGPFG or MewGulf Paen Faen Gun (trans: Mew Gulf are dating/boyfriends for real). Long story short, I got hooked and went down the rabbit hole. I became a huge fan which is a surprise to me because I never go this deep into a ship couple. 

Fast forward to today. TharnType Season Two has so far released three episodes and I found myself beginning to feel uncomfortable. Mew and Gulf are still the handsome, adorable men that they are, they play their characters without hesitation, there were times I had to take stock and rethink what I was seeing. There was too much Mew and Gulf seeping into Tharn and Type. I couldn’t put my finger on why I thought that, but then, episode three was released last night and I watched it.

To make it simpler on myself, I recorded my thoughts as I watched the episode unfold.

·      Lazily done backdrops. Why are they using MG's real-life couple photos? Can't they take pics of the TT characters for the series?

I know this is a creative decision because based on the initial reaction to the first episode, the fans were very happy to see MewGulf represented in the TharnType series. However, to me, especially with the bigger budget this time around, there is a feeling in my gut that the production was reluctant to invest money in creating a TharnType interaction that spanned seven years. 

·       The laptop stand looks so familiar. I have one exactly like it, but it’s black and it sits by my side if bed when I am sleeping

·         Okay why am I watching MG and not TT? I know these boys, that was not in character. I love it so don't @ me!

·         I am now starting to count the many filler word counts

·         Seriously? Internal monologues? This is basic. You don't put that in and stretch it. Come on

·         Internal monologues that are spoken and stretched out to several minutes means the actor could not translate the emotions across right? Or is this the shortcoming of the director, because frankly, the actor only does what the director asks them to do

·         Techno did that whole thing in one second. The boy can act! No need for the internal monologue to waste our time from this actor

·         It’s the restaurant scene…oh; Thorn is going to propose here?

·         Gulf said 3 lines which spoke volumes. Now, that's acting

·         Back to the restaurant…sigh why am I punishing myself like this? I am not a masochist. I swear. Scout’s honor

·         I’m a MGchist...

·         Another restaurant.

·         This is so cringy!!! Fiat and an ass. Okay, good acting there. But still, could’ve been shorter. Moving along…omg can I click fast forward?

·         Oh! Wait! So Fiat plays around...with that cringe-worthy guy…he’s a bad boy that Fiat

·         wait, was Tharn thinking to propose to type that night too? That’s how I interpret it

·         Nobody answer me!!!!

·         oh god okay Thorn’s future fiancĂ©e. OMG, she looks older, and more powerful than Thorn. Just saying!!!!! He's going to be the wifey, not her for sure
And she’s the one doing the proposing…and will settle as Thorn’s #3 in life just as long as he promises she will be the only #3 and no other follows…hmmm. Interesting cultural information there. Nice touch.

·         Btw, that restaurant scene on the should be cut down to 2 seconds of screen time. That was too lengthy and unnecessary

·         I see Tharn, I see Thanya, but I want to see Type who just happens to be still at work

·         Production obviously stretching this out...too’s really obvious

·         …and the fifancee has got a Birkin bag, looks original too…wait, this is a 5* restaurant and it's got tv on with Thanya being interviewed????? Really now???? in a 5* restaurant???? That aint a diner peeps!

·         Oh, that diamond on the ring’s too small. Just saying!!!

·         At the end of that engagement segment, shift to Type. Wow, G brought across unvoiced internal monologue in less than a second. That’s what I’m saying. Internal monologues don’t need to be stretched out to take up half the episode time. Way to go Gulf!

·         This is frustrating. I never got this frustrated with season one. Why are the unnecessary lines and scenes being given so much air time?

·         Hmm…hello Leo. Dear god what is he doing??? no scrap that! what was the director thinking?????

·         because everybody knows, it’s been set up in previous scene, that he is in freaking Venice, Italy and it is not even winter because he posted a pic from a gondola
what is he doing inside his room with a woolen scarf wrapped around his neck, standing by a bookcase and reading a freaking pamphlet? Which means its either spring or summer and that means, no need for a sweater. Or a  scarf. Indoors. 
Director? What say you to defend this?

·         Come one peeps! erm director

·         Fiat and Type in hospital. Oh, that is a surprising twist. This is an obvious case of transference. Didn’t expect that

·         Noooo, bad move Type, never give out personal contact deets to patients!!!!!

·         Leo arrives back in Thailand, to his house???? in full trench/long winter coat while wearing beneath it, woolen sweater, jeans, and leather boots

·         This is not on Mame, this is director. This is full on the director's shortcoming

·         "You’ve been making a fuss since you got here." that line. OMG that line. That is so out of...context. Leo? had just literally arrived not a full minute ago and he says that line that implies Leo had been there for hours or days. WTAH

·         basic editorial mistake right there

·         Nana? That is the secretary bitch name's Nana???? Are you kidding me? (Nan Na is Mew Suppasit’s latest single. Maybe my frustration is getting the best of me…I’ll simmer down. I love that song.)

·         WTF Techno breaks character. What gives, Mame? Director? This is an elementary mistake

Okay, that was not as disastrous as I’d thought it would be, but it might as well be. I am confused. Don’t @ me. 


The biggest gripe of the fandom right now is the very short, and very limited ten minutes air time of MewGulf…erm, TharnType. The truth of the matter is, they saved the episode with their two sweet scenes that stole the entire show. That said, this episode definitely could use some whip to crack over the production’s thick skulls the direction for they're going the wrong way. They're steering off course. What was that about Techno suddenly saying Tharn was cheating on Type? He’s known the guy for seven years and everyone knows, it’s practically canon, that Tharn would rather hurt himself than inflict any kind of pain on Type. Ugh, I am not a happy camper here.

Based on the three episodes I’ve watched so far, this entire season two should have been retitled into something else. A couple of choices I could suggest would be, ChampKhun: TharnType the Series Season 2 or LeoFiat: TharnType the Series Season 2 because their characters were the focus on this one on top of the other one and another’s. Did I mention too many characters?

My thoughts

For Ep3, there is definitely a lot less airtime for TT, ten freaking minutes total to be accurate about it. Yes, we took a timer and timed their scenes. If the rumors are true, that the TT will only find more airtime somewhere in the 10th ep, the rest would be spent on the side couples, then Ep13, will all be NC or erotic scenes between TT just, you know, to give us our pacifier lollipops (for the young het audience?).


Why do I get this funny feeling we are only going to see MewGulf act the NC scenes...that's it...and add in smatterings of spice with small airtime drama droplets to pamper us fans?

This is a season 2, and the title is TharnType The Series Season 2 which begs the definition this is still about Tharn and Type. As a rule, when installments are written, there will be other characters written in, so I am not mad at that. What I am concerned about is the 10 mins in ep 3, and the little or more minutes in ep1 & 2.

Let's talk about the NC scenes...these were awesomely done and MewGulf gave us a lot to swoon over, but frankly, they were lollipop scenes designed to garner interest in the story. Also, there is one NC scene that had been sliced up to focus more on the side characters. So the lollipop was more obvious. At least to me it was. 

Finally, I cannot help but look at the direction this series is going. Again, this is based on personal observation for I have written enough book series installments to fail in recognizing that the production is using the TT success to boost the minor characters for either a spin-off or something else altogether. I'm more inclined to go with the spinoff. From the amount of time given the side characters or ships, to the total lack of marketing push for the main characters TharnType I think I may be on the right track of prediction. Top it off, I have observed that the actors of the minor characters in season two are given more attention and consideration than the main actors Mew and Gulf. This is an observation again, from someone who is keenly watching from behind the scenes. 

Do I like where this is going? Do I understand why this seems to be the direction the production is going? I am not sure what I am feeling right now. I went into TharnType because no matter it was a low budget film, it certainly grew into something bigger that it has become a cult classic with an international following and attention the likes of which no Thai BL series has ever had before. Not to mention, MewGulf is all over social media and their trendsetting activities continuously make it to the global trends list on Twitter. Trending to a Global ranking of #1 is a norm for this team.

In the end, I am a huge fan of both Mew Suppasit and Gulf Kanawut, the two rookies that could, and did. I will not allow my disappointment of the first three episodes get to me. I am hoping for a happily ever after, or even a wedding. Should I go and turn my back on this series, something in me would be very disappointed for I love to know how this all ends. 

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